Ibtisam Azem
The inspirations behind The Book of Disappearance, and how I wrote it
The novel is about the sudden disappearance of Palestinians and the reverberations in Israel. It explores the intersection of memory and history and reclaiming one’s past. I was listening to an interview with an Israeli politician who made false claims about the equality Palestinians enjoyed in Jerusalem and all the privileges they had. It wasn’t surprising, but I was upset that the interviewer never challenged him. It made me angry, and I started to write an article. I remembered how Israeli prime minister Yitzhak Rabin had once said when he was the minister of defence that he wished that he would wake up one day and find that the sea had swallowed Gaza. I remembered that the Israeli historian, Benny Morris, had expressed his regret that the Israelis did not finish the job (and expel all Palestinians) back in 1948. I then thought, what would the Israelis do if Palestinians were to disappear? That’s when the idea of the novel was born.
It took me about three years to write the book, which included research and interviews that go hand in hand with writing. I start out by outlining and sketching until I reach a point where I’m living in the world of my characters. I start writing but go back to reading and research to fill gaps and add necessary details and there are always pleasant surprises that take me beyond my plan. It’s a dynamic process. I wanted to make sure that I give enough space to characters with whose politics I disagreed and have them be three-dimensional.
As difficult as the subject is for me personally, I had to enjoy the process and withstand the hellish world I had created. Sarcasm had to be injected for that purpose. I knew that the conceit of the novel was unique but wanted to make sure that I translated it creatively. The fear of not doing so was there, of course. After seven drafts, I felt that I was on the right path and was close to the finish line of the marathon. In writing I always try to unleash the internal rebellious child who sees the world differently and refuses to be tamed and disciplined by its institutions.
The book that made me fall in love with reading
It wasn’t a single book, but the group of Palestinian poets and novelists who taught us our history and collective memory through their works. Our school curricula were curated by the Israeli state and our own history, as Palestinians, was silenced. In our Hebrew literature classes, we had to read Zionist literature which spoke of our homeland as empty land. This was antithetical to the oral memory and history I heard at home from my mother’s family who were internally displaced from Jaffa during the Nakba in 1948. I grew up in the 1980s and 1990s, before the advent of the internet. I was introduced to Palestinian literature outside of school. Writers and poets like Emile Habibi, Fadwa Tuqan, Ghassan Kanafani, and Mahmoud Darwish, among others, shaped my worldview and helped me understand my homeland and people’s history. Later, when I studied German literature, reading Wolfgang Borchert and Kafka was transformative and influenced how I understood reading and writing.